As a kid, I had always dreamt of myself being the best of all the business people in the country... news channels flashing my interview on the latest product I launched... n my dad getting really thrilled with all of it...
There were times... when I thought of becoming a writer....n all celebrated writers of the country imploring to take a glimpse of mine, just that they get enthused for their impending stories… n my mom actually getting ecstatic with my success…
There were times when I also saw myself as one of the most illustrious director of the most famed movie of the time… n fanatic followers crazying to enter my theatres…n my sister gazing at me in delight…
And as I grew up… I acquired skills that impossibly could help me grow into any of these…
Eventually there came a time…when I grew up to become (!?!?!) a software engineer(thats wat they call me these days... )
One day, while I was lazing around, there was an untamed thought that came to my mind….what fun wud it be if I could barter both these worlds of mine…. This would mean…while I lived my world of dreams (!!!!!!!), I would dream of being a software engineer…!
What fun would that be…! I would live movies…earn loads of money… n have my parents completely elated…!!! Would buy platinums… would spend as much as I cud… live as prolifically as I had dreamt… I would live life to the best…
But then…that would also mean…. I would begin to dream codes and designs… I would think optimization… I would dream deadlines… I would dream being kicked off of office… I would dream failures… I would dream being cursed by my PM… and I would dream being in trouble…
Thoughts, beyond measure, began floating in my undersized head. Some of them abstract, unsaid, and such that existed more as essence than as solid thoughts…
N I know… the new world of dreams would power me run away from the real life of movies and would die to live life of a SE… (uuuuhhhhh…) what a sick imagination would this be….
After all they say…one is not known by what he is… but is known by what he intends to be….!!! I, often, found more solace in my world of imaginings…n I know this is human….
I would die wishing things that I just can’t think of wishing now…
Never thought before today, this gap that existed was so inevitable; else life would have become unspeakable for me…
